A new thought.

Funnel cake sand beneath,
I can go another 100 years without that heartache.
It was hot that day but my feet were cold
Sitting watching waves from Pacific icy waters
Inside waiting for the movie to start,
Because I have never been so fucking cold
Come in the water
"it's great once yer here"
Wondering now all the time when or how soon this sun will blow apart
Leave now before I get too old
Choices once made can't be made undone
Those books say the same thing - you never won
(all that screaming doesn't mean that much to me)
Happiness is what happyness does
Always been the same never much different
Never be who you are only what was
The choices you made can't be made undone
They all say the same things you know you are one
How soon is that sun gonna blow apart

...And though to say we got much hope, if I am lost it's only for a little while...

A wild flower seems to grow for every little problem/thought that occurs here. It is summer time, and ya gotta love that.

Ain't we just like brothers?

Smiling there in reassurance, when we both know the pending outcome.

I am lost, but only for a little while, please believe.

Don't forget me here in my little space.
I am not a toy to be so easily passed behind.

Maybe it's the drugs, but I feel so honest and watching you all get the things that yer owed.

Someone for everyone, my mind rates that person on second meeting.

Please believe -
Please believe -

I am in my own mind, and you aren't here. That doesn't make it right. It doesn't make it anythinmore that it is.

I felt something so beautiful and strong.... it faded and here I am with petty ambitions and dreams.

I remember everything - and it haunts me when I try to play my guitar -

"What would she think?"

Does it even matter?

I don't have any answers, just a weakness and hollow feeling in my heart.

Bob Dylan was a young man once...

...and he said -

If tomorrow wasn't such a long time,
Then lonesome would mean nothing to you at all...

He is a pretty smart guy I think - shit, I could totally be wrong, this is the same dude who said -

Everybody must get stoned...

Anywhoo - yesterday was Chad and Ylana's wedding - and me, feeling particularly inspired as the day's drum pounded slowly on, wrote this upon returning to Bremerton late at night -


a break -
an idea of idealized reality
to light
my
feeble way
Once a year for 15 minutes
or maybe
an hour a go

Time...
Slows...
and it's just gotta be a dream!

I'm living for moments so perfect
(and)
So incredibly fleeting...

a sunset
a picture
a glimpse

Of who I want to be,

A blue dress
A flower

(Music so sweet)

Those uncomfortable shoes...
But maybe, it's just a beautiful vision of
that
smile
(or yer irreverent wisdom)

That makes this quarter hour enough heaven to last an impossible life.



I don't claim to have the answers, I know how fucked and goofy my ideas are, I wonder who I am s'posed to be while time moves increasingly faster - but yesterday was beautiful and I wish Ylana and Chad all my best and brightest wishes forever, 'cause they figured something out...

Not with a bang - But with a Whisper

Overtaken and exposed by factors you didn't expect,
Leaving with the greatest and most total regret,
Late night highs assailed but forgotten...

But what if yesterday was tomorrow?
Riding on that fear so irrational,
And tomorrow was today?

Left sitting withdrawn - But all your friends are there,
Waiting for you - and the night has just begun.
Drinks and the most solid people creating comfort,

Barely a month now - with a hundred year past,
Once again, I don't know you -
Or
Your
Carefully crafted grace...

But if yesterday was tomorrow,
And today was still to come -
I wouldn't yet know you,
And we would still have something to say.

Cornerstone

Didn't need just what I thought I did,
All those little gifts given so freely,
Maybe that's how it goes,
Treating them so carelessly,
Plates shift and the earth spins,

While I continue to grow and question -

It never ends -
though people,
Landscapes and faces change,
Powerless to fix the spreading cracks,
Now showing through cornerstones,
Long since laid to rest.

Memento

Drive me there again -Just outside of Memphis,
History held forever in the humid night -
Once upon a time I was here,
Never thought it would happen again -

Homemade experience on limited funds,
And all those trinkets you thought you'd need -
Forgotten in a back drawer,
However lost the object - It forever continues there to remain.

Beans

Travelling to the hills to find the ground beneath,
Eyes that seldom close and you know how it is,
But somehow - somehow it is lost,
Now and then I still remember -
When the wind is just right,
Years past with you running close behind me,
Chasing that ball back to the present,
Quiet - ground that lays there beneath the sky,
I remember it all over again,
Small and left behind toys - some magic is implied,
That sky was orange and blue just like today,
I close my eyes and it's right here again.

Test -

The first test post of the "writing" section of Terrapin Productions. Actual writings will be coming soon...